Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Happiness taken from children?

What happens when children are un-happy? When something is given to them & its taken away? Well, this post is for me. Okay, I'm not exactly a child but when I say "un-happy children" its because parents are involved. In my case, my mother is involved. Now, I would never speak badly of my mother because God knows that I love her with all my heart. Come on, she's the lady who gave me life.. BUT, on the other hand, she makes me un-happy. Taking away things that are close to me and expects me to be okay after a few days. "She'll get over it." So here's my story. Maybe you'll find it funny, maybe you'll find it sad but I don't give a fuck what you think. If you've read my previous posts, I've had a dog for a little while now. Peewee. The only thing I ever got attached to. My little baby. Well, he's gone now. No he's not dead, but he's not in my arms anymore. She sold my dog for 200 fucking dollars. I should've seen this shit coming, only because SHE'S DONE THIS 3 FUCKING TIMES TO ME. She buys me a dog, and gives them away after I fall in love with them. You just don't do things like that. So all the mother's out there, word of advise, if you don't want your kids to hate you don't give them things and take them away because YOU yourself get tired of them. It's un-fair and as a result, you get UN-HAPPY CHILDREN. She sits here complaining that I have an attitude and why don't I talk to her.. why should I? Then, she tells everybody that I'm not speaking to her to try and make people feel bad for her. She did it to herself and I will never forgive her for that. Okay, yeah eventually I'll get over it. But, like I said, I will never forget or forgive her. My brother is 2 years old and till now he keeps saying Peewee, Peewee, Peewee. Isn't it clear that he misses my dog too? Smh. I keep crying about it, even right now as I write this. I miss you Peewee.
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Sunday, May 17, 2009

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Self Exclamatory? Pretty much. Love sucks. The truth is that after all
the good times you shared with that special someone, all the things, all
the fucking time wasted on that person, in the end you'll have nothing.
All the smiles and joy will soon turn to dark cold lonely nights, tears and heartache. Everything has an end to it and it sucks that it has to be that way. I should've listened to Mommie & Daddie when they told me time & time again that nothing good would come of this. I am/was/will always be unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him but then again, was he? Is he? Love is a hell of a word and I wanna no why the fuck it hurts so bad. Rhetorical question. The worst part of it all was giving up and what hurt so much was that I wasn't the one who gave up. Why should someone hold on to something that isn't worth fighting for? Well at least, it wasn't worth him fighting for. Do you have any idea what you've done? You have taken the only thing that beats in me. I'm defeated and out of love. But I guess this is just another bump in my rode or a long dream that I woke up from with tears and heavybreathing... One of those dreams that you wake up from and wish that it was true...sitting up on your bed thinking like damn, I knew it was too good to be true. It was only a dream, a fantasy, completely unrealistic.. More like a nightmare towards the end of that once oh so wonderful dream. So much for my happy ending, so much for my cinderella story, my prince charming? He was indeed my first true love. The only man that will hold the key to my heart forever. I'll be seeing you, I love you.
-Mimi