Scared of Lonely

Scared might not be the right word for my situation.. Maybe more like tired of being lonely? Yes. I'm so fucking tired of the bullshit games, heartache and run arounds. I thought I had my one and only, but I guess everything has an end to it. UGHH. God will send me my happiness.

New Moon Trailer, finally!

Official New Moon Trailer from benok the great on Vimeo.

So fucking excited to see this movie! FINALLY, they made a damn trailer. The book was freaking awesome & this shit looks like it'll be better =] Who's coming with me to see it!?

Happiness taken from children?

What happens when children are un-happy? When something is given to them & its taken away? Well, this post is for me. Okay, I'm not exactly a child but when I say "un-happy children" its because parents are involved. In my case, my mother is involved. Now, I would never speak badly of my mother because God knows that I love her with all my heart. Come on, she's the lady who gave me life.. BUT, on the other hand, she makes me un-happy. Taking away things that are close to me and expects me to be okay after a few days. "She'll get over it." So here's my story. Maybe you'll find it funny, maybe you'll find it sad but I don't give a fuck what you think. If you've read my previous posts, I've had a dog for a little while now. Peewee. The only thing I ever got attached to. My little baby. Well, he's gone now. No he's not dead, but he's not in my arms anymore. She sold my dog for 200 fucking dollars. I should've seen this shit coming, only because SHE'S DONE THIS 3 FUCKING TIMES TO ME. She buys me a dog, and gives them away after I fall in love with them. You just don't do things like that. So all the mother's out there, word of advise, if you don't want your kids to hate you don't give them things and take them away because YOU yourself get tired of them. It's un-fair and as a result, you get UN-HAPPY CHILDREN. She sits here complaining that I have an attitude and why don't I talk to her.. why should I? Then, she tells everybody that I'm not speaking to her to try and make people feel bad for her. She did it to herself and I will never forgive her for that. Okay, yeah eventually I'll get over it. But, like I said, I will never forget or forgive her. My brother is 2 years old and till now he keeps saying Peewee, Peewee, Peewee. Isn't it clear that he misses my dog too? Smh. I keep crying about it, even right now as I write this. I miss you Peewee.

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Self Exclamatory? Pretty much. Love sucks. The truth is that after all
the good times you shared with that special someone, all the things, all
the fucking time wasted on that person, in the end you'll have nothing.
All the smiles and joy will soon turn to dark cold lonely nights, tears and heartache. Everything has an end to it and it sucks that it has to be that way. I should've listened to Mommie & Daddie when they told me time & time again that nothing good would come of this. I am/was/will always be unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him but then again, was he? Is he? Love is a hell of a word and I wanna no why the fuck it hurts so bad. Rhetorical question. The worst part of it all was giving up and what hurt so much was that I wasn't the one who gave up. Why should someone hold on to something that isn't worth fighting for? Well at least, it wasn't worth him fighting for. Do you have any idea what you've done? You have taken the only thing that beats in me. I'm defeated and out of love. But I guess this is just another bump in my rode or a long dream that I woke up from with tears and heavybreathing... One of those dreams that you wake up from and wish that it was true...sitting up on your bed thinking like damn, I knew it was too good to be true. It was only a dream, a fantasy, completely unrealistic.. More like a nightmare towards the end of that once oh so wonderful dream. So much for my happy ending, so much for my cinderella story, my prince charming? He was indeed my first true love. The only man that will hold the key to my heart forever. I'll be seeing you, I love you.

-Mimi

Back and Better than ever.

Okay so after about 3 weeks, I'M BACK! And better than ever. I have lots to tell and many updates to do on my blog. I'm just writing this post for now but come back soon and you won't be disappointed. ;)

Be Back Soon

Going Hiatus for a while.

I officially need a break, from everything. I need to get my mind right and think about things that need to be thought about, if that even make sense. Of course, I'll recover and come back to tell you guys all about it, but until then, so long. ;\

Hello Kitty Mouse

♥Hello Kitty is the SHIT!

Ok so I was on google.com searching, like always, lol and I ran into this cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute mouse for my laptop! AND YES, I ordered it :) Cost me $8.99 with no shipping. HOLLA! Lol. I can't wait to freaking get it. Isn't it beautiful? I love it ^_^

Good Day Gone Bad.

For starters, my hair didn't come out right this morning. I flat-ironed it (why? I don't know cause my hair is already straight) and it came out DISGUSTING. It was already too late to rewash my hair and blow it out. Then, my bag was so heavy cause I had my textbooks in it plus my clothes and sneakers to work out in the gym after my classes. So theeeeeeen, I leave my house fucking late (11:30) when I was suppose to leave at 11. Dammit. I get on the van and I forgot my damn wallet on my bed. LMFAO! Holy Shit. I get off the van and walk back home. I get on the elevator and I GET STUCK! OMFG looool omg omg. I was so mad I started crying. Today is officially NOT my day.....................

On better terms,

my favorite movie comes out tomorrow. I will be buying it Saturday ;)

I LOVE YOU EDWARD CULLEN!

Katy Perry- Thinking of You

OMFG! This is officially the greatest fucking video and song ever made. Why? Simply because it's Katy Perry :) I love how she made this video like the movie The Notebook. It very emotional and yes, I did cry to it. Made me realize how much I love my boyfriend!

ENZ 99

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